start starting

I want to have a living autobiography.

I want to show myself and my art as I create it. I want to share what my life is like post suicide attempt. I want to show the hope I feel in my chest. I want to be open and honest and odd.

I am scared of the response. I know the world is cruel, and my heart is sensitive. Nonetheless, I think my art outweighs my fear.

I don't understand what's stopping me from fully committing. I have videos and poems and art galore. I just need to start posting them! I need to fully believe in myself!

There is no concrete thing stopping me anymore. I have the time and the content and the support. If I build it, they will come.

I want to build a little world of my own. 

I want to stop stopping and start starting.